Thing Don't Always Go The Way You Want I have been very emotional for the past few days. Rollercoaster... Tried a lot of things that I have never done before.. I feel as if I have a lot of things to say but don't know what to say. I always thought that I was lucky that in my life I always have people to take care of me, at home, in school... But I dunno the extent of luckiness I have... Here, I don't think I can find someone who is willing to sacrifice as much as what my good friends did for me in school and no one can beat how much my parents do for me. All I need to do is maybe whine a little, sa sa jiao.. Sometimes I don't even have to say or do anything, they would have come to help already. Now a lot of things have to be done alone. Is this called independence? I don't really like this... Don't like this type of solitude... I miss my friends! I want to be caring, understanding, helpful, supportive, yet I know a lot of things I don't do... maybe not much can be expected from me... my inertia for certain things are simply too high... maybe one day I will change but definitely not so soon... maybeI am simply not good enough...
- as told by qin ning @ 8/18/2005 09:34:00 pm | (0) comments

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