Thanks a lot to everybody who made my birthday so memorable, blessed, happy, touched, xin fu.......
Yesterday was the day I turned 18. I'd invited the majority from my class and sixteen turned up. Woah! This is quite an impressive number considering the time and the nature of my class. At first, they would not let me out of my room for dunno how long. When they were finally ready, the living room was dark except for the candle lights from the cake. Touched... Very touched... Followed by a birthday song, the usual stuff... Then, the climax for me; they had kept a number of presents in the living room and I had to search for everything. This was supposed to be carried out while they had food but think that they enjoyed watching me searching for the presents, so they were crowding around in the living room with some people trying to block me from seeing the presents. Finally, I found all the presents which was quite a lot. Thanks a lot!
I do not know what happen in between, all I remember was I was busy with something. Then, somehow the class organized themselves and sat in a circle to play
Ultimate number cum Truth or Dare. Secrets were almost all exposed. In the middle of the game, Alwyn had to leave, so I sent him down. Hahaz. Thinking that he knew the way, he didn't want me to send him down even to the extent that at downstairs, he won't move to make me go back to play the game. Luckily I brought him to somewhere near the bus stop or else he might lose his way. When I reached home, at the door, I heard something like "She's back. Want to ask her?" At that time I was very dazed, didn't know what they were saying, didn't care either. The game went on and at times, I felt quite apologetic to some people for making them feeling so awkward and embarrassed. They left at around 9.45.
After sending them home, hahaz, another cake awaited me. Initially I thought I'll not have any cake, then now I've got two. Hahaz. I am so blessed. Hahaz. After the whole thing ended, I felt as if I would just collapse and sleep on the floor. However, when I could finally sleep, I just could not. Slept less than three hours today. So very tired.
How am I feeling now? Happy? Confused? Worried? I don't know.
- as told by
qin ning @ 8/31/2004 04:53:00 pm
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Saturday, August 28
Today, I went out and was going to be home late. I've told my parents not to wait for me. Then, I reached home around eleven, saw the door was not closed. I thought my mum waited for me. Then my brother appeared in front of me, saying that I was finally home, he could go to sleep already. I asked him, " You wait for me arh?" He replied," Ya loh, mummy went to sleep already, didn't wait for you. I almost lock the door and go to sleep already." My dear brother was so sweet. He did not know that I brought the keys out. He was worried that I'll be locked out and stayed up for me. So sweet. I am so touched but feel so sorry for him. So proud of him too.
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qin ning @ 8/28/2004 11:41:00 pm
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Thursday, August 19
Today during PE, I ran for about 4km. Quite happy that I managed that because I was trying to push myself to carry on.
I am addicted to Olympics already, sacrificing my sleep to watch the Game. Have to restrain myself.
Really lagging in my studies. Have not officially start on any subjects yet. Need to be more disciplined!
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qin ning @ 8/19/2004 07:54:00 pm
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Friday, August 6
Today's ndc don't feel like celebration. The atmosphere wasn't there. At least to me it was so. It ended quite early. Something happened. Although I know it was a joke, it hurt so much that I almost cried. I just wish that my tears will not threaten to appear so easily. I read an article that said that crying is a signal for help. However, it is also a sign of weakness, a sign of emotional weakness.
u matter much more than I thot
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qin ning @ 8/06/2004 09:56:00 pm
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Wednesday, August 4
Cheer up, Brian. You know what they say.
Some things in life are bad,
They can really make you mad.
Other things just make you swear and curse.
When you're chewing on life's gristle,
Don't grumble, give a whistle!
And this'll help things turn out for the best...
And...
(the music fades into the song)
...always look on the bright side of life!
(whistle)
Always look on the bright side of life...
If life seems jolly rotten,
There's something you've forgotten!
And that's to laugh and smile and dance and sing,
When you're feeling in the dumps,
Don't be silly chumps,
Just purse your lips and whistle -- that's the thing!
And... always look on the bright side of life...
(whistle)
Come on!
(other start to join in)
Always look on the bright side of life...
(whistle)
For life is quite absurd,
And death's the final word.
You must always face the curtain with a bow!
Forget about your sin -- give the audience a grin,
Enjoy it -- it's the last chance anyhow!
So always look on the bright side of death!
Just before you draw your terminal breath.
Life's a piece of shit,
When you look at it.
Life's a laugh and death's a joke, it's true,
You'll see it's all a show,
Keep 'em laughing as you go.
Just remember that the last laugh is on you!
And always look on the bright side of life
(whistle)
Always look on the bright side of life
(whistle)
wish u didn't matter so much that i feel that i am losing myself
- as told by
qin ning @ 8/04/2004 04:59:00 pm
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